My Beatles Experience

There has been a lot on television this month about the 50th anniversary of the appearance of the Beatles on The Ed Sullivan Show. It has prompted my own Beatles memories. I was 10 (coming up 11), and I saw that show. My best friend in school and I watched and then called each other. We were excited. We didn't really know why, we just were. She was my first "cool" friend. She taught me how to do the jerk, and other hip (at the time) dances.

I had another old friend who had moved away a year or two before, to Houston, which might as well have been to Mars back then. We didn't have cell phones, or even our own private phones. Our parents wouldn't let us call long distance. We could write letters, but that got old pretty quickly. That friend though, Carolyn, had the advantage of having parents who were also friends with my parents. So when they did come to Corpus we usually got to see each other. She was as Beatles-crazy as I was. All we did when we were together was talk about the Beatles. We daydreamed about them, and we played their records on my old box record player, endlessly. We were in love with the Beatles. All four of them. We had their pictures tacked on our walls. As soon as a new song came on the radio, we raced out to buy a 45.

In the early summer of 1965, Carolyn and her parents came to visit. They had a proposal to make to my parents. Carolyn was busting with excitement. The Beatles were coming to Houston, and at that moment, as we whispered in my lavender room, her parents were asking my parents if I could come to Houston and attend the Beatles concert with her and another girlfriend of hers. I felt the breath go out of my lungs, and it stayed out for about an hour before my parents called me into the kitchen where they had been talking with Carolyn's parents. What did I think about the idea of going to Houston to see the Beatles in August? WHAT DID I THINK?……!!!

I really couldn't believe that my parents were going to let me go. I would be 12 by then, which seemed very old to me, but they never had thought so before. And they were going to pay for me to FLY to Houston, where Carolyn and her dad would meet me at the Hobby airport. I had never been on a plane before. The prospect of a plane trip, by myself, was almost as exciting as the idea of actually seeing the Beatles in person. The days dragged by that summer. Unbelievably slow.

But finally August arrived. My bag was packed. I had on my best satin and lace dress, complete with stockings, low-heeled T-strap shoes, and gloves. We got dressed up to go on airplanes back in those days. Mother and Daddy took me to the airport and walked me out the terminal door onto the tarmac. They kissed me goodbye at the base of the rolling stairway that rose up into the plane. The Corpus airport had no "jetway" at that time. Nobody had heard of such a thing. You walked people right out onto the runways and said goodbye just before they stepped up onto the plane. Times were much simpler, and nobody flew around the country just for work or the hell of it. An airplane ride was something special, and rare.

I was nervous. The stewardess showed me to a window seat. The big propellers on the plane started to whirl. They were loud. As the airplane took off, I was transfixed. I pressed my face to glass and watched the cars on the road below turn into toys. We rose above clouds that had rainbows gleaming inside them. I adored every single second of that plane ride. In about an hour, we landed at the Houston airport. Carolyn and both her parents were there to meet me. Carolyn's mother said I looked elegant in my gloves and lacy dress. I felt grown up and sophisticated.

That night we went to the Sharpstown Mall. We didn't have a mall in Corpus yet and I was fascinated by all the stores under one big roof. We went to a record store. They had posters all over advertising the Beatles concert that was sold out for the next day. We flirted with some boys that were hanging around in there. I had on a Mary Quaint style mini-dress, blue with an empire waist and flared sleeves. I bought a 45 of a song I had heard on the radio by some new recording artists named Sonny and Cher. The song was "Baby Don't Go." Carolyn and I played it over and over on her box record player that night. We were hyped and hardly slept a wink.

How we got to the Houston Coliseum the next day is foggy in my memory. So is the other girl who went along with us. She was Carolyn's friend and after that trip, I never saw or heard from her again, but the three of us were the very best of friends all that day. Carolyn's dad drove us, and before he let us out at the curb, he handed us all our tickets. I still have the stub. The general admission ticket cost $5.00. I guess Mother and Daddy paid for it. I'm not sure.

The place was packed. Later they said 10,000 people, mostly girls, filled the Coliseum. There were several opening acts that we all endured with polite applause, but nobody listened much. The Master of Ceremonies, a radio deejay called "The Weird Beard" got up on stage and announced that the Beatles were in the house. The place erupted. Out they came, looking just like they did in magazine pictures. Girls screamed and the whole place surged forward. They started playing "Twist and Shout." The crowd went wild. Girls were trying to get up onstage, but a line of policemen had blocked their way. The three of us stood up on our seats like everybody else but still we couldn't see them well. You could feel the bass and hear the drum, but the rest of the music was lost in the screaming.

Carolyn nudged me. She and her friend had an idea. She was pointing down at the floor. In the pandemonium I couldn't hear her at all, but I followed her lead. The three of us got down on the floor beneath the seats and crawled. We were only about five seats from the aisle, and when we got there, we were stopped by a policeman who motioned for us to go back. Carolyn just shook her head fiercely and motioned that we wanted to leave. The policeman let us by and we went in the opposite direction from the stage. Carolyn's friend lead the way; I guess she was familiar with the layout of the Coliseum. She took us up to the balcony which had emptied when the Beatles came on the stage. We went all the way to the front of the balcony, sat down, and had a bird's eye view of the whole band: John in his slouch hat, Ringo's fists full of flashing rings, all in their matching suits and mop-tops swinging. It was fabulous, an experience of a lifetime. It was all over in about 30 minutes, and we were emotional and subdued as we left the Coliseum.

Funny that the plane ride back to Corpus is gone from my memory. Or maybe Carolyn's parents drove me back, I just don't remember. Everything that happened after the concert was anti-climatic and unimportant. But I had seen the Beatles. In person. When school started again a few weeks later, I was the envy of everyone who believed me. A lot of them didn't. Thought I was bragging. Probably I was. Probably I rubbed it in a little too much. I know I felt pretty special. I still do.

Deep Winter Blues

So far, it has been a long winter and I'm tired of it. One of the reasons I wanted to move back to Texas was because the winters were so endless and dreary in Northern New Mexico. I was tired of having to stay bundled up in layers of clothes for months on end, and so what happens? The first winter we're back in Texas is one of the coldest on record. Of course. And I've been bundled in layers for weeks and weeks now.

I have packets of seeds waiting to be planted. I want to set up my potting bench and get started. I want to do a raised bed garden in the backyard, and I have the plots all planned and drawn out. I am ready to start buying garden soil and ready to get my hands dirty. I have missed gardening so so much.

When I was a kid working in the yard was drudgery. Punishment. I hated everything about it, and thought my parents were cruel slave-drivers when they made me and my brother do anything out there. All through my twenties I had the same opinion about it. So when did that change?

We had a nursery in the 1980s, my ex and I, and maybe that was when I started to realize how soothing garden work could be. It occupies my body but it quiets my mind. Luckily for me, there's almost always something to do in a garden, even if it's just watering and watching my creations grow. There is a true miracle inside a seed or a bulb. The snowdrops I planted back in October, when the workers were here laying flooring and carpet, when I just needed to get out of their way and out of the noise, those bulbs have already begun to come up, little shoots braving the world like green arrows shooting out of the ground. Probably not this year, but maybe next, they will flower and hopefully spread along the edge of a future planting bed. I put them there with that in mind.

There is something hopeful about gardening, trusting in nature, in the inevitability of a seed or a bulb. I like doing it from scratch, but I also sometimes know when to accept defeat and go to the garden center for 6-packs of ready-made plants. I never have had much luck with growing peppers from seed, but I have three packets and am about to try again. There's the hope I was talking about, that this time I will find success in a prosperous little pepper seed.

I have been collecting egg cartons and grocery store pie containers. The pie containers make great little mini-greenhouses, the ones with the clear plastic lids. Poke a few holes in the bottom pie-shaped part with an ice pick, fill with seedling mix, water, plant a few seeds, put the clear lid on, and voila! Mini-greenhouse. In about 10 days the miracle begins. Egg carton bottoms, especially the Styrofoam kind, make nice cell packs. Use the trusty ice pick again to puncture the bottom of each egg cup, fill with the seedling mix, water, plant two to a cell, and in 10 days or so, voila! It's important to water before you plant so the seed won't wash away. And the seedling mix you can buy almost anywhere is fine enough for baby plants to push through. I have a greenhouse shelf unit I tried to use in the mountains. I never had much luck there, but maybe this spring, in South Texas, I can put it to work.

A Gardener's Edge catalog came in the mail the other day. I have pored over it for days now. There is a backyard greenhouse on the last page that looks exactly like the one I had at the Buffalo Wallow. The price of it is about the same as I paid five years ago, so that's not the issue. But do I want to go through all that assembly again? And here I don't have the concrete pad like I had there to set it on once it's assembled. I think I probably will have a greenhouse again, just maybe not this year. The weather has been abysmal. I believe I've been colder here than I was in 12 degrees with two feet of snow in the mountains. The thought of having to go through 50 pages of assembly instructions to build that greenhouse in a cold back yard makes me shiver.

I don't think a groundhog would have seen his shadow here yesterday. So doesn't that mean winter is nearly over? Or do we have to go by what happened up there in Pennsylvania where Punxsutawney Phil supposedly saw his shadow yesterday? What does Pennsylvania weather have to do with our weather down here? I can't remember what the Groundhog Day rules are, but I do know, I'm ready for Spring. More than ready. My fingernails need dirt under them!!

Daddy's War

It is almost a year now since Daddy died. The time has gone by really fast, and yet so much has happened in that year. I still miss him daily. The time at the end was frustrating. I really believed that he was going to get better. It wasn't until a couple of days before he died that it actually hit me how much trouble he was in. I never thought in my wildest imaginings that it would end the way it did.

Once he was gone, so many stark and surreal decisions had to be made. His house was a wreck. I had known that much was coming, having to wade through all that mess. His office was cluttered with years and years of papers. He never threw anything away. And it was often difficult to determine what was garbage and what was something that needed to be saved. But there were also so many surprises, like the daily journals he kept for decades upon decades. There were more formal memoirs he had typed and gone over. There was a World War II diary, a tiny little booklet inside a Ziploc. There were tokens treasured throughout the years, some of which I still don't understand. He had a rock collection, but he never labeled any of the rocks, so I didn't know their significance. There were cartoon figurines, dozens and dozens of loose photographs, and albums so carefully assembled by Mother after she retired. There were letters from relatives and friends, some of whom I did not know. And it went on and on, the detritus of a lifetime. And what does a survivor do with all this ocean of stuff!

I adored my daddy. He was always my fall-back, my go-to, my guide through the minefield. We had a special friendship, a mutual admiration and respect for each other. All my life I was simply a big-time Daddy's girl. It wasn't easy to wade through all the remnants of his days on this earth, especially not right then, when his death was still such an open wound. With the help of my SO we hauled off bags and bags of throw-away. Some of the things that ended up in the fire pit at my SO's place, were sentimentally valuable. Some of those things wound up there unintentionally. I didn't know what they were -- trip logs from the many many cruises and car trips my parents went on, photos of long-forgotten places. I foolishly thought I could get it all down to one box. One small storage bin, something more manageable than this whole house full of nostalgia. Those weeks of cleaning house were a huge struggle. I was looking for important things, but how to tell exactly what that was or might be. I was looking for legacy. I ended up with several boxes, and more than one bin. I ended up with priceless photographs, pages of memoirs, and treasures that have found special places in my life now. But I know I also know that I inadvertently threw some of those treasures away.

And then there was his World War uniform. Hanging inside a heavy garment bag in the office closet. I knew it was there. It wasn't a huge surprise. I had come upon it many times in my girlhood, when it didn't mean much to me. Everybody's dad had fought in the War. It was still pretty fresh in the 50s and 60s. Daddy's best friend had lost both his legs in the War, in the Battle of the Hurtgen Forest. Another friend had a deformed hand, a wound received when his unit invaded Italy at Salerno. When asked what he did in the War, Daddy always said he was "footman." I didn't know what that meant, but it satisfied me and I repeated it many times. But the truth is, he was in a unit of the Army Air Corp that repaired B-24 bombers damaged in combat. He never fired his weapon in battle, but his squadron was frequently under bombardment. Statistics I have read say that it took 25 men in support units to enable a single fighting man to do the actual business of dispatching the enemy. Daddy was one of those 25.

At first he worked in the sheet metal factory, repairing flak holes in bomber skins. Then he was in the propeller unit, repairing bent up props that had crash-landed or been otherwise shot up. He packed parachutes for a time, a job that probably seemed small and inconsequential but that saved so many lives. Then one day, about halfway through the war, the CO of Daddy's unit asked in desperation "Does anybody around here know how to type?" Before the War Daddy had worked for Western Union. He had typed, in kind of hunt and peck fashion, a few telegraph communiques. He raised his hand in answer to his CO's query, and became the squadron typist. He got pretty good at it, and was promoted to corporal, the youngest man in his squadron. They called him "Baby," which was the same thing he was called at home, so it felt normal to him. In fact, the whole experience of war was pretty good, his coming of age years, and his memories of those days attested to that. Which was why he kept his uniform so neat and clean in that garment bag for 67 years. He had gotten married in that uniform, because it was the only suit of clothing he had that fit him after the war, and lots of servicemen got married in theirs, too, in that year of a hundred million weddings -- 1946.

There it was, still hanging in his closet, same as it had been when I was a kid. But what to do with it now?

A dozen years before I had met and befriended a man who had been a fighter pilot in the War. He had helped me with research I was doing on a novel. We had met several times for lunch, and I had visited him and his wife at their home. He had shown me a foot locker filled with his War memorabilia. There were invaluable things in that foot locker, 50-caliber shell casings fired from the guns of his plane, a fighter pilot's oxygen map, a survival kit, a Nazi flag he had captured, and on and on and on. I had said to him, "Jack, this stuff should be in a museum." And he had answered that was a decision that would have to be made by his heirs.

Heirs indeed. Now, I was having to make that decision. Daddy's uniform, the big leftover keepsake of my father's war, should also be in a museum. It was pristine, looked the same as it had when he last took it off and hung it in the closet. No moth holes. No ragged places. No rusty spots. It was still olive drab, with all the appliques neatly sewn on where they should be. It was museum-quality. I started calling around. I really had no idea where to even begin. I spent several days on it, and finally, lo and behold, someone returned my call. A man who ran the local museum in the town where Daddy had spent the last 18 years of his life. They were collecting things for a military exhibit. He did not have an Army Air Corp uniform. He was excited by the uniform and wondered if I had other things that could be added, any letters, diary entries, could I write a little something about his service in the War. Of course, I could. That's what I am, a writer, and I had listened to Daddy's War Stories all my life. I had escorted him, and even hosted, one of his Squadron Reunions. I started going through his memorabilia with an eye towards what might make a more interesting exhibit in a museum.

This past Monday, January 27, 2014, almost exactly one year after he died, Daddy's museum exhibit opened. He isn't the only soldier honored there, but he is one of them, and his is the first thing you see when you enter the front doors. I almost could feel him smiling at me when I looked at it there, on opening day.